“It’s been twenty-two months for me,” she said.

Death leaves a heartache quoteWe had just disembarked from our cruise ship and were waiting for the train excursion to board when I began talking to the woman beside me. She was petite, attractive and beautifully dressed. Her hair was ‘fixed’ as we say in the South and her makeup skillfully applied. Although we were Read the rest of this entry »

Yesterday was a rainy Sunday. I thought of Phil and how we used to spend rainy Sundays. Read the rest of this entry »

Well, actually it was three widows in a cafeteria but you get the point.

View from the table

View from the table

Recently while attending a conference onboard an Alaskan cruise I was looking for a seat in the casual dining room of the Lido deck. I saw a couple middle-aged ladies at a table for four and asked if I could join them. They welcomed me to their table and we began chatting. Read the rest of this entry »

Today, June 23rd is designated by the United Nations as International Widows Day. As a widow and writer I did a little research to see why we need an international day Read the rest of this entry »

Facebook COO Sheryl Sandberg wrote openly in a Facebook post yesterday about her grief inSheryl Sandberg the loss of her husband, Dave Goldberg, CEO of SurveyMonkey. It’s been 30 days since his passing. Today marks the six-year anniversary of my own husband’s death. Read the rest of this entry »

Sacred Ground

18/04/2015

Sun breaking through cloudsToday a friend emailed asking for prayer for her neighbor who has been given only weeks to live since the MRI showed her cancer has spread. She has a Glioblastoma multiforme brain tumor, stage 4, the same thing that killed my husband. That took me back to my husband’s final weeks. Read the rest of this entry »

Listening to Bruno Mars sing about the “same bed” feeling a “little bit bigger now” and the heart breaking a little “every time I hear your name” I think about my first Valentine’s Day as a widow. Read the rest of this entry »

Myra and Cynthia Camilleri in Yellowstone National Park

Myra and Cynthia Camilleri in Yellowstone National Park

About three months after Phil had been diagnosed with a GBM brain tumor I got an email from a woman named Cynthia. She told me that she was a friend-of-a-friend and had heard about Phil’s diagnosis. Her husband had recently been diagnosed with the same thing and she wondered if we could talk. Of course! We exchanged phone numbers and planned a time for a call. Read the rest of this entry »

Chapagne at new home

Celebrating my “best worst life”

“You have the best worst life ever!” my friend, June Cline said recently. I laughed and agreed. We were sitting in my high-rise condo with the great view talking about my work projects and various social activities on the calendar. Read the rest of this entry »

Many years ago when my nephew, Christopher was a little boy he came to spend the day with Phil and me. Christopher was helping ‘Uncle Phil’ work in the yard. They started by unloading a truck load of dirt into a sink hole in the back yard and smoothing it out. Once that was done they planted some flowers and bushes. Christopher was a great help, working beside Phil all along the way. After each task was finished he would look up at Phil and eagerly ask, “Now what are we going to do?” Read the rest of this entry »